We have come so far, but which direction?

What has happened to the world? Do we really need to kill and damage and riot to be accepted? People will go out at night and damage other people’s property just to have sum fun. What if it was them? But no one thinks that way. Why is violence such a “cool” thing? All you’re doing is hurting some one. It doesn’t show that you’re a man if you can hurt some one who doesn’t deserve it or does. It shows that you have a need that u cant control. You have no self control. It’s not cool. It wasn’t cool, what happened? People lose their friends, family and lovers just because people have no respect any more. Every one has a chance to make a great future for them selves, if they try. Once you feel like u don’t have a future you lose your respect for the present. Why bother, right? Wrong. I was flipping channels and I saw just a building on fire so I wanted to see what it was because I thought it was the news. In the end it was a show called “Pushing the Limit”. It was talking about teen violence and that type of stuff. If you can, try and find it and tell me, I really wish to see the whole thing.

When girls attack

Girls will use the terms bitch, whore, slut, dyke and other terms that the media has deemed necessary. If they dislike another girl, they will torture her until it is too much to handle. The funny thing about this is that girls will use methods that they can even if they r plain weird. I have been prey to many of these attacks but so has every girl. I’ve also heard and done some of my own attacking. Also like many girls. But why must we? What is this natural compition in us that makes us need to be better? We hate our selves and we must make every one feel the same way. I don’t get it but no one does. It’s impossible to turn that feeling away. Media, boys, family, everything will tell us how to act and tell us we r not doing it. So we must tell every1 else that they r not doing it either so we r not the only ones. Majority of girls won’t use violence but instead will create minor situations until they add up and create a lasting impression on the victim’s self-esteem. I read a book called “Odd Girl Out” and it’s amazing. If any1 reads this post then I urge you to at least look it up on Google or something.

How can u do that to me?

How can u do that to me? How can you pretend like I do nothing and everything is still my fault? It isn’t fair. What have I done? Is it really all my fault? Of course it is. It’s always my fault because I’m always just screwing up like really what’s the point? It’s not worth it. I’m making a big deal out of nothing. There r people off way worse then me. But I can’t do it. I can’t pretend everything is ok. Everyday I go to school with a smile on my face and I wish I could break down and cry. But if I did then I would be made fun of. No1 likes me or even cares. If I cried no1 would notice. What’s the point? It’s entirely my fault. I can’t even get mad I just can’t. I can’t not act like those people. I don’t even know who I am. What’s the point? There is none. No one cares any more. I try to be what people want. But they hate it. I can’t be who I’m not. But I can’t be who I am. Who am I? I don’t even know.