How can u do that to me?

How can u do that to me? How can you pretend like I do nothing and everything is still my fault? It isn’t fair. What have I done? Is it really all my fault? Of course it is. It’s always my fault because I’m always just screwing up like really what’s the point? It’s not worth it. I’m making a big deal out of nothing. There r people off way worse then me. But I can’t do it. I can’t pretend everything is ok. Everyday I go to school with a smile on my face and I wish I could break down and cry. But if I did then I would be made fun of. No1 likes me or even cares. If I cried no1 would notice. What’s the point? It’s entirely my fault. I can’t even get mad I just can’t. I can’t not act like those people. I don’t even know who I am. What’s the point? There is none. No one cares any more. I try to be what people want. But they hate it. I can’t be who I’m not. But I can’t be who I am. Who am I? I don’t even know.